foolish

So every night before I sleep, I think BIG. I mean, looking into my future and planning what I want. I never realized how stupid I was because I realized my grades and most likely my SAT scores would never match up to my dream college, nor would I ever play college volleyball. :/ I just have this dream of what I wanted to do, and that was it. I thought about that every night, until last night. I stopped myself and said to myself "what the heck is wrong with me?" I don't even know my own future but I'm planning it out for myself. I think it's a pretty selfish thing to do now. Everything was all for me. But I know that if I don't make it, I'd call myself foolish. I'm pretty foolish now to think that. But that night, I remembered something that I learned from bible study and it was in James 4:

Boasting About Tomorrow

¹³Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." ¹⁴Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. ¹⁵Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." ¹⁶As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. ¹⁷Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.


Yeah... who knows what is my future. Even a tarot card reader nor a fortune teller can do that. I think I remember when I was younger, in a halloween kid's party, this fortune teller told me that I was going to have twins. WHO KNOWS?! But anyways, I have to stop worrying now. I just have to focus on what I have to do now... which is January 23, 2009, is my SATs.... :( YAY me.