Run
By: Kutless
Why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know I
just, just want to be with you.
Looking down from above as you watch TV
Wondering why, oh you're ignoring me
Do you remember, remember when I came to you
And you loved me
And I'm waiting for you
And I'm waiting for you
Why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know I
just, just want to be with you, to be with you
Hey, why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know
I just, just want to be with you, to be with you...
Whatever happened to the love, the love you had for me
When you first came to me
Don't you know that I died, died so I could be with
you forever.
And I'm waiting for you
And I'm waiting for you
Why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know I
just, just want to be with you, to be with you
Hey, why do you run why do you hid oh don't you know
I just, just want to be with you, to be with you...
Find a place of solitude, and I'll speak to you
As you pray to me
Don't you know I'm waiting here, waiting for you to
read and hear my words
I'm waiting here missing the time the times we shared
oh, please come to me
So, why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know I
just, just want to be with you, to be with you
Hey, why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know
I just, just want to be with you, to be with you...
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Sometimes I feel that I push God out of my life when I just feel like I can handle things myself. I know that God's always going to be there just "wanting to be with me". He's waiting for me to come back to him, but there's so many obstacles. So much sin, so many temptations.
Lately, I've been focusing a lot more on God. Maybe it's because I've been lonely. Maybe both physically and spiritually. I felt distant from God because I felt there was a big gap between God and I. I felt that there was so much problems at church that it's hard to really focus on God at church. So much drama, so much fooling around, and so much confusion. I was scared of falling behind. I also felt physically lonely. Not during church, but definitely during school. I think so hard about what to say to others without being tempted, and it became SO HARD. I never realized. I became so quiet after realizing such things, like what my friends talk about, I try not to take so much in. But then I run out of things to say. Nothing is going on in my life. So what do I say? I just say NOTHING. I'm basically just plain quiet in school. In church, I know I recieve a lot of love from my dear sisters and brothers in christ. But I don't know. I always feel this weird lonely feeling. I don't know. Maybe God's calling me to go to him for the answer. He's always the answer. But I guess I don't have ENOUGH faith. I need God more than ever... and sometimes I'm just uncertain of what's going to happen. I always want a clear answer. But through God, I always felt that I won't have the answer right away and that I'm just SUPER IMPATIENT. I feel terrible. God knows what's ahead, but I'm just selfish and impatient. I really need to slow down and just wait upon the Lord. I need more faith.
